A New Ending

I Danielle Kristine Fry am graduating from college this Saturday.  If you think you can't believe it, imagine how I must feel.  I woke up a little over a week ago and everything kind of hit me like a freight train.  I am really scared.  I don't want the big scary life yet.  I want to feel secure, safe, and calm about everything that is going on in my life.  I now know what the big deal about growing up is, and why people warn you to stay little.  I assure you if I had any way of doing that I would have done it.  As I sat in my bed thinking about how much money I would have to make in a month to be able to not only sustain myself but also a dog (Yes I got a puppy.  She is a mini sausage and her name is Blair) I began to panic.  Not a little.  A LOT.  So much, in fact, that my roommate came into my room to find me hiding under my blanket for no apparent reason.  All she knew was I was choosing to hide like a 3 year old.  

I have quite possibly picked the hardest and most unstable profession in the entire world.  I sure know how to pick em don't I?  Then I thought about why I chose this joke of a profession and I went, "Oh Yeah.  Because I love it."  Yes ladies and gentlemen that is my big excuse for having no degree to fall back on.  I'm not the only one who knows it either.  I love it when a local at Starbucks asks what you do for a living and you answer almost embarrassed because you know what is coming, "I'm an actor."  I'm not surprised when they burst into laughter.  One even said, "Yeah so is the guy behind the counter."  I cringed outwardly on that one.  

I have been dreading this day for a couple of weeks now, and while it comes with getting away from some of the classmates that leave something to be desired, it also leaves me with no way to pay the rent.  The obvious answer.  GET A JOB DANNI.  Easier said than done.  Oh sure Hooters will higher me, but the local Forever 21?  Nope!  I feel as if I am doomed to failure.  I have no credentials to work somewhere fancy, and if I take the Hooters job I become a whore in the eyes of all who care about me.  I ask you, What's a young girl to do???  Sure I have an agent and all that jazz but how am I supposed to pay for the pictures that need to be printed, and the postage for mailings?  I am at a loss.

While I look at this new dilemma as a challenge and a new adventure, I can't help but wonder at how some people do it.  I am scared to watch the next chapter of my life unfold.  Can I make it in the business or will I be the one to be back home in May?  I don't want to be a failure.  I want to achieve everything I've ever wanted, but when I look at the odds it almost seems easier to just go home now.  So as I await D-day shaking in my boots, I hope the cards play out in my favor.  And instead of the same old ending to the same old story, I hope mine is a good one with a new ending.

Musical Showcase

I have been working diligently on my musical showcase these last couple of weeks, and I have never been so tired!  I am in a lot of numbers in the show and have been there for the last 4 weeks from 6-11 every night!  I have definitely had a lot to think about especially now that we are working on running the show over and over and over again.  I'm excited more for it to be over than I am about doing it.  Hopefully that will change when I get an audience and such.  I cannot wait for Halloween tomorrow for a break for once!  I will be done at 6:30 tomorrow and I am looking forward to a little fun.  I am being a Bunny for Halloween (think Elle Woods Legally Blonde), and my roommate is going as a fairy.  I will be sure to take lots of pictures because I'm sure we'll be something to see haha.  I really wanted to be Alice in Wonderland, but all of the costumes I found were really expensive.  So I spent a grand total of 38 dollars on my costume, which I thought was a bargain considering most of my friends were spending like 75.  Granted I'm not all that creative but I'm still having fun.   I almost forgot to tell the big news.... drum roll... I am moving forward with an agency!  I have been "shopping" these last couple of weeks and have had a few bumps in the road but I think I finally found an agency I can work with that sees my career goals and agrees with me.  Hopefully this next week I will be signed and ready to go!  Don't worry I'll be sure to remember you all when I hit it big ;). XOXO

Working Girl

Last week I went on my first film audition and got my first job!  It was for a Japanese pop artist's music video.  She is pretty big in Japan and is named Hitomi (you can find stuff on itunes if your that interested).  It was a lot of fun.  I didn't get to do a whole lot because there were 30 of us but I got paid to just sit around!  We had to wear these horrible swim suits that were bright colors, mine was traffic cone orange!  The concept behind the shoot was this linked tee shirt and a bunch of random blind folded girls dancing in it.  No joke!  I had to even dance underwater (great concept but the positive imagery stops there).  Not only that but get out of the shirt and swim backwards (they'll make it look like I'm swimming forward and get dressed in the shirt).  We went to the beach too and did a few things there, and it was really cold.  I had a lot of fun though!  I figured it was a good way to start :).  I had gotten an offer for a SAG film that was supposed to be American Pie-ish the day before (based entirely off my headshot might I add), but it involved nudity so I turned it down.  Hey, if Jessica Alba can go through her career and keep her clothes on, so can I!  I've been on a few more auditions and have some more tomorrow but the jobs keep coming!  I know if I keep my standards high I'll get rewarded for it eventually.  Until then I'm keeping my clothes ON.

Auditions

This week I had a few interesting experiences.  I auditioned for Tokyo Disneyland Resort, and I'm a proud to say that I didn't get in!  As my teachers say, "Rejection is your friend." and I have come to take that saying to heart.  Disney is very particular about what they want, and if you don't fit the part perfectly you are o-u-t.  Also its very hard to break into their performing jobs because they tend to use the same people over and over again (Disney is notorious for being cheap like that), so I figure there is something else out there for me.  I recently got onto a casting site that can help you submit for auditions, and I get to be on Deal or No Deal on Tuesday!  They were looking for cute girls to sit in the audience and I got hired!  Woo!  I get paid like a hundred bucks per show and all I have to do is look good. 

 What I really need though is an Agent or Manager.  They can get you good auditions and help you build relationships with Directors, Casting Directors, and Studios.  I'm still trying to get my headshots in order so I can start mailing, but man it is expensive!  You have a 25$ lay out fee, then any retouching is 35$ (Luckily I don't), and then on top of that its like over a hundred dollars to get 100 prints!  Then I have to purchase the post cards which are 55$ for 100, including all of the other fees.  I'm trying to find a less expensive place that will give me a discount.  It is expensive to be an actress.  On top of that I need to get my hair done!  My teachers are hounding us about looking our best because we are the product we're trying to sell, and my re-growth is out of control.  At this rate I'm going to need new headshots soon because my hair is growing so fast!  Phew.  I envy the actors who just got discovered in a mall... lucky son of a guns.

About Me

Hey! So I finally got a blog for my friends and family to read, so then I don't have to continue to tell the same story over and over. This will mostly be about me going on auditions, school, and just life in Hollywood. Which is far from glamorous let me tell you... I probably won't be on very often because in my life not a lot happens, but hopefully something big will (Agent or Job anyone?). So keep checking back every now and then because I'm sure something will happen :)
Talk to you soon!
Danni